"It's hard to be sure whether we're doing the right thing"
In November my husband, myself and partner formed a high end software company, meaning our software is built and installed in large companies. Our partner is the developer of the software. The software is highly evolved, ahead of the current technology by years. We are self funded using our 401K money, which means our dollars will take us through August before we need to look for something else to bring in income. We've had several sales calls, but no sales yet. It's hard to stay up-beat - some days we think we made a mistake, some days we know we did the right thing, and some days we think we're just crazy. What's going on here?
Hi - well, it sounds like simple anxiety to me. Which is fear. Living in fear doesn't work too well. If you are stressed and anxious, you will not be able to allow a harmonious, creative, or abundant flow of energy to be present in your endeavors. So, if you want that to be present in your endeavor, it must be present in yourselves. If you trust what you are doing and can keep a calm, steady energy going, if you feed the energy of trust into your endeavor, that is what you will receive back.
When you find yourselves feeding off one another's anxieties, sit down and invoke a spirit of trust and calmness, meditate, or read something that uplifts you or re-kindles and re-inspires trust.
Loving non-attachment is one of the greatest and most necessary qualities you can develop. I always love the story of the poor farmer in China, to help with this. In China, if you were a poor peasant, but you had a horse, which he did, you were considered extremely fortunate. One day the farmer's horse runs away. The people of the village come to him bemoaning his fate. "How terrible for you!" they said. "To lose your horse!" "Maybe yes, maybe no," he calmly replies. Then one day his horse returns, bringing with it another horse. The villagers rush to congratulate him. "How fortunate a man you are!" they say. "Now you are rich indeed! 2 horses!" He replies gently, "Maybe yes, maybe no." One day, as his son is training the new horse, he falls off and breaks his leg. Once again the villagers rush to his side bemoaning his fate. "How unfortunate for you! What a tradgedy! Your only son!" Once again he replies, smiling peacefully, "Maybe yes, maybe no." Soon after that, the Chinese army raids the village, taking with them all the young men, except of course, the farmer's son, who can't be of use since he has a broken leg.
You get the picture. On and on it goes. The farmer remained at peace, in his center, despite outer and constantly changing circumstances. The practice of mindfulness is a great thing. You may want to get hold of Jack Kornfield's tape series, "The Inner Art of Meditation." He's a great storyteller, a very centered being with a delicious sense of humor, a highly developed level of compassion, a wonderful teacher, and practitioner of mindfulness, and the tapes are fun and profound listening, They deal with this ability to stay lovingly centered, and much more. A good practice for the business we call life, in general, don't you think?