"I have so many problems I hardly feel like myself anymore"
I am interested in what you would have to say to me. I am Roman Catholic but am just discovering my faith. I have had some "psychic" experiences involving receiving feeling from other people when I was younger but didn't know what it meant. At the time it was scary and I closed myself off to avoid the experiences. (Most occurred when I was touching someone, i.e. a back rub.) I have a list a mile long of medical issues that I am dealing with and I am to the point where life just doesn't seem worth the struggle. The major issues that I seem to have are ADD, depression, fibromyalgia, Raynaud's phenomenon, PCOS, hypoglycemia, tinnitus, frequent dizziness and fatigue etc. I hardly feel like myself anymore. As you might guess, my family is a mess. My children also have medical issues and my marriage is strained. What does all this mean, and what can I do to start feeling better. How do I heal my family?
The question isn't how do you heal your family, but how do you heal yourself. Sounds as if from the beginning, you listened to what others thought was "right" - i.e., Roman Catholics don't receive psychic messages, and so forth, so you shut yourself down. Guess what happens when you shut yourself down? When you stop being yourself? The life force can't work, and without energy and the joy of being yourself, you get sick.
I think what is going on is that you don't have a sense of yourself, and so everybody else's stuff pours into you. In other words, you are an empty receptive vessel that is filled up with all the stuff around you, that is present in your environment, from people, to thought forms, to emotional debris, etc, and, as you said, you hardly feel like yourself anymore. How can you, with everyone else's emotional and psychic junk in your space (i.e., your being)? You probably are still very psychic and are picking up all of the junk in your environment, and you don't know it, or know how to keep from taking it on, or once you have it, how to release it. Again, no room for your own energy to fill you up, flow, and keep you well. If you learn how to keep yourself well, how surprised would you be that your children then will also learn how to keep themselves well?
Here's what I suggest:
As I was thinking about your letter, it just came to me that there could be something in your physical environment that may be making you all sick, since you said that your children were sick as well. Do you live near a power plant, or a sub station? Do you live near any factories, or airports? Do they spray near you with any kinds of pesticides, or do you use pesticides in your home? Have you had your water checked? If there is something nearby (or within the home) that is polluting the environment, it could be causing your illnesses. Sub stations are known to badly distort our electrical energy and cause all sorts of havoc in our bodies. I would invite you to take a good look around, maybe even get in touch with an environmental group if you think this may be a possibility.
Good luck. Ayal