"Is there such a thing as selling one's soul? Or have I finally committed to myself at last?"
You gave me some good advice 3 years ago, which I have followed with good results. It was hard but life is a little better now.
There is something that is bothering me, and it is very unusual, I wouldn't dare ask anyone I know personally...
I have tried for the past - let's say 15 years - to be successful (happiness, job, people, family, etc) but no matter how hard I tried, it just didn't work out. I do have a good job, but the people are quite "catty." My family is dysfunctional and my mom died 3 years ago.
However, after one night pleading with God as to why things have to be sooo hard all of the time, something left my body- at least it felt like it did. I remember saying, "I don't care what must be done, but I want ease and peace, and I want things to work for me, I don't care what must happen."
My question is: Is there such a thing as selling one's soul? Because that night I felt like, for the first time in my life - after caring for a whole host of family members - that I was the only one who mattered and I could care less about anyone else - not anyone.
3 years ago, you told me that it is possible that my life lesson was to come into this world "to learn to breathe on my own." I have to admit that your comment was soo true.
Of late things have been going fairly well. I need your advice. thanks in advance.
What you did is exactly right - you put passion and total commitment out to the Universe, and it responded. The Universe hears us when we mean it and have absolutely gotten down to that no more fooling around with this junk/ bottom line place - where you are demanding your clarity and joy and are willing to go for it - no matter what. This is actually called "Embracing your Spirit" and "Surrendering" to a Higher level of Being - fully accepting who you REALLY are.And a lot of people are scared to go there, to leave behind old familiar ways of being - being more attached to the physical plane then the spiritual one. Leaving ego behind is another way to put it. All the old crap. That takes courage!
This is the exact opposite of selling your soul. It is, instead, CLAIMING your Soul!
I once heard the story of an Ascended Master who said "Don't go before God as a beggar, whining and complaining! Go before God as the strong and mighty and noble Prince (or Princess) that you are, a Royal Child of the "Father" (Source, that is), and DEMAND your birthright!!" - which is Joy and Happiness and Peace and Clarity.
And that is what you did. It doesn't mean that you don't care about others. What it means is that you KNOW that this is what we are supposed to do - to go for our own Enlightenment and allow others to be where they are at in their journey with it. Just because someone else isn't ready to go there doesn't mean you ought to compromise yourself and jump into the hole with them and not go for it. What does that add to Life? More people in a hole. When you go for the Light, you add MORE LIGHT and Love to all that is, and that is what we are here to do!
Great work! That place you got to is when things do change, and it IS like a rocket that has dropped off part of itself in order to soar higher and not carry unneeded baggage. Big energy shift! Congratulations!!
One other thought that I wanted to offer... Whenever I put out to the Universe my demand (and of course we're putting it to ourselves, too - to our soul/energetic stuff) - I always include this phrase: