"I'm jealous of my fiance's female friend and fear he will prefer her"
I've been with my fiance for over 3 years and everything was PERFECT until his father was killed in a motorcycle accident about 6 months ago. When he was going through the grieving process he was very angry and took it out on me. (He ignored me for about 2 months). Now everything is pretty much back to normal. (He treats me like a queen!) EXCEPT now I'm extremely jealous of his best friend. She's an attractive woman with a great personality. (She's been a wonderful friend to me too.) Deep down I know there's nothing more than friendship between them. They were friends way before I met him and I never had a problem before the death. NOW I obsess about her. I think that they're going to realize they should be togther. I hate that I feel this way because I know that it's all in my head. I CANT STOP IT!!!! I just want to feel the way I used to before the death. Why did this all the sudden come on and how can I make it stop? PLEASE HELP... I don't want to lose my fiance (the! BEST thing thats happened to me!!) or the friendship I have with his best friend. HEEEELLLLLPPPP!!! Thank you so much.
Hi - Well, what I am getting, interestingly enough, is that you took on some energy that isn't yours when his father died. It's an energy of insecurity and fear. If your guy was in this energy, and as you said, he took it out on you, I think what happened was that you absorbed it.
A couple of things you can do:
- Say the following twice:
"Mother -Father God and Holy Spirit: Assist me by directing any energy I took on that is not mine but is in my field to the God consciousness. Replace that energy with God's perfect love energy. Thank you!"
- Also, you can do the following:
Visualize a beautiful, glowing white light above your head. Then slowly bring it down through your whole body, through your feet, and then send it into the earth. Then surround yourself with a cocoon of glowing white light. State the intention very firmly that only the highest love vibration can or is allowed to enter your field.
I'd do this 3 times within a 3 hour period.
If you find that this energy and sense of insecurity persists, go on the net and look up the Foundation for Shamanic Studies, and find a practitioner near you. Tell them you need to have an extraction done.
But regardless, this lesson has come to show you how much you need to own your own power and understand that YOU create your own reality and what happens in your life.