"How to cleanse myself of the past and begin on my new path?"
I happened upon your website in a search for a cleansing ritual to prepare myself to continue on a path of enlightening myself... or rather allowing the universe to enlighten me!
I was in a horribly abusive marriage for years... endured all manner of emotional abuse and lies. I want to release that from my life and call my spirit back. I have Read Caroline Myss and listened to her lecture series Anatomy of the Spirit. I have also met some wonderful people that have shown me Reiki healing and other things that I was unaware of. They seem to think (know) and I agree that this has found me not the other way around.
My question... what is the best way and time and place to perform some sort of ritual to cleanse myself of the past and begin on my new path!
Hello. Cleansing can take time, as what happens is that we cleanse, or deal with, whatever layer presents itself at a certain moment to be released. So, it may not just be a one time thing. We usually can't do it all at once, as it would be an overload on the system, since there ARE levels to things -it took years to build up the pain, and it takes time to undo and heal it. That requires patience and trust and gentleness with oneself. Once we unveil one layer and deal with it, then, when the time is right, the next layer will open for us to see things we hadn't seen before and deal with it. We have to take steps, in other words, and integrate each new insight and understanding before it is time to move on to what presents itself next for healing.
I invite you to do a power animal journey (see info below) to work with releasing this energy, 6 days after you receive this e-mail.
There is a lot of sadness for you to release, and the best way to do that is simply to allow yourself to feel it completely when it rises up. Find a safe place to let it out - allowing yourself to weep if that is what is needing to happen. Again, there will be layers to this sadness as well. One layer will release, and then when it is appropriate, another will rise up to be released.
Knowing that we are born, not to abuse ourselves or others, or be abused - but that we are born to manifest the glory of God, the Light, Higher Self that is within us, will help you along the way. It is very important that you make a connection to your emotions, and allow them to be felt and then released. You have created a protective shield around yourself which has stopped you from feeling your emotions, and when you are able to let this down and be more vulnerable with yourself, allowing yourself to feel what you need to, then a lot of healing will occur
Your 2nd chakra - which allows you to respect yourself, feel worthy of giving and receiving love, thus enabling you to give and receive emotional, physical, and spiritual pleasure needs some healing. I invite you to re-read the chapter on the 2nd chakra in 'Anatomy of the Spirit' and see what had you choose to be in an abusive relationship. When you take ownership for creating that in your life, then you are able to release it and change your energetic patterns so that you can move on and create something different for yourself. Taking responsibility for creating the situations in our lives is the best way I know of to release them.
Using the gold Aura-Soma pomander for releasing irrational fears, healing old wounds, and reconnecting one with one's innate wisdom would be a good thing for you to do. Also using the Sanat Kumara and Lady Venus Kumara quintessence to make a connection with what you need to do to undertake and complete a task - in this case, your healing, and which brings the Divine into the everyday, would be beneficial. They can be ordered at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Working with the beliefs you have had that
- you will give affection but that it will not be returned to you
- that you will always be deprived
- that you were rejected or dumped by the family and therefore feeling lonely and cut off
When you do your power animal journey, it will be important for you to deal with the issue of "incomplete bonding". This usually occurs at birth, where the child is not held or with the parents enough in order to bond with them, and issues such as are mentioned above get created.
Using the white light of Christ Consciousness, or the Higher Self, twice a day from now on, will be important and good to do. Imagine a glowing, brilliant white light above your head, and allow it to flow through your whole body, all the way through your feet and then into the earth. This releases energy that is not your own or for your Highest Good from your space. Then surround yourself with a glowing cocoon of white light and feel yourself filled up with it.
Shamanic Power Animal Journey
Here is the information on finding your power animal. You will need a tape player and a tape of drumming that is especially made for shamanic journeys. This can be ordered from The Foundation for Shamanic Studies. You ought to be able to locate them on the Internet. the tape ought to be at least an hour long. If it isn't, re-copy it twice onto another tape to make it longer. When it is time to return from your journey, the drumming will speed up, so only have that speeded up part re-copied at the very end of the tape. If it is still light outside when you do this journey, you may want to put a cloth over your eyes to make it darker. Also, some people like to use headsets to listen to the drumming.
Get comfortable in a quiet place where you won't be disturbed for at least 40 minutes. Light a candle, and then do some slow, deep breathing to fully relax. As with doing any sacred ceremony, you may want to set up a protection around yourself and state an intention that only that energy which is your true Spirit of Unconditional Love and Life Force energy be with you and given to you. It would be good also to set up a cocoon of white light around yourself before you begin which puts this in place also. You can ask for guidance and protection from Great Spirit, the Creator, God, etc. That way you are very clear what your intention is and what you will only allow into your space. Lighting white candles is a good idea as they represent light and purity.
When you are fully relaxed, imagine that you are walking along a path that leads to a special place that you have actually seen before, a place that leads into the earth. This can be a cave, a hole in the ground, a hole in a tree, a rock overhang, etc. As you imagine walking along this path, use your imaginary senses to really be there - smell the air, feel the ground underneath your feet, notice the colors and sounds around you, feel the air against your skin. Take it all in. When you get to that place which leads into the earth, which is for you alone and no one else, enter into it, again using all your senses to explore the area for a bit. Feel if the walls are smooth or rough, wet or dry - if the air is cooler, etc.
Then, you will notice that there is a long tunnel leading down into the earth from this entranceway. Follow it down deeper and deeper into the earth. Allow the journey to take you as it will. Release any need to control it. Let happens what happens and just stay present with the experience. While you follow this tunnel deeper into the earth, hold in your mind and heart the intention that this journey is for you to connect to your power animal, your medicine ally. That is what you are there for. Eventually, you will notice that the tunnel ends at another entranceway. This entranceway leads you into the world of the Animal Spirits. This world is consists only of a world of nature. Natural landscapes are everywhere. There are animals everywhere - in the trees, grasses, by the rivers, on the mountains, etc. Notice what it looks like, what the landscape is like where you have arrived into this world. Leave the tunnel and begin to walk out into this world. Again, use all your senses as you explore this world. Notice what time of day or night it is, what's around you, the sounds and colors, the smells, the feeling of the air against your skin, how the earth feels under your feet, etc. Walk in this world taking it all in, holding your intention to meet your medicine ally, until an animal approaches you. When it does, ask it if it is your power animal. If it says yes, you may then journey on with it, learning about it, sharing with it, bonding with it, and asking for any help or guidance or answers you may need. If it says no, it is not your ally, continue walking until you meet the right one. When it is time to leave this spirit world, ask your power animal for a gift, and give it a gift in return. Ask how you can call upon it when you need to, and ask also if you need to keep what it is and what it shares with you private. When it is time to go, say goodbye, and thank you. Then, return to the tunnel and walk back up out of the passageway until you return to the entrance where you entered into the earth. Walk back along your path, and return to the room where you are visioning from. Take some time to fully come back into your body, bringing ALL of yourself back, filling up all of your body with yourself, all the way to finger tips and toes and eyelashes. If you choose to, you can write in a journal about what you learned and what guidance you were given. Take some time to integrate this experience. Don't go out into the world too fast or try to do too much afterwards. Drink water, and Remember to blow out the candles!