Confidence's deadly enemy Comparanoia (okay, made up word) is a habit that many of us fall into, and it can eat away at our confidence on a daily basis. Read the following article to find out how to defeat it...
Here's a little test for you:
Are you up to scratch?
Do you look as good as the next guy (or girl)?
How much do you earn in comparison to others?
Do you wear the right clothes?
Is X (notice who you think of!) more interesting than you?
Are they smarter than you?
Do you worry about saying the wrong thing?
Do you fit in?
Did you notice how you felt when considering those questions?
If you often compare yourself to others, you're not alone. More than two thousand years ago the Greek philosophers Plato and Aristotle were already writing about how people compare themselves to others. Looking to other people to get a sense of our own 'worth' has been going on a long time.
More recently, social scientist Leon Festinger developed a theory of 'social comparisons' which basically states that there is a natural drive within people to evaluate their own attributes (looks, wealth, capabilities) by looking to others. After all, how do you know if you're any good?
Other people are the mirrors where we can see ourselves. I can only know if I'm good at high jump, say, if I can jump higher than lots of other people. If I never come into contact with other jumpers, I can't know whether jumping seven feet is good, bad or indifferent.
Festinger also hypothesized that people compare themselves either upwardly to people of greater status (however determined) or downwardly to people less well off than themselves. That is, we tend to believe we are more like the people we consider above us, and less like the people we consider below us. It's hardly an objective view, of course, but our view of how favorably (or unfavorably) we compare to others is often a contributory factor in our level of self esteem.
Social comparison isn't always or unequivocally a 'bad thing'. After all, we are social creatures who have survived down the ages by banding together, and a safe way to do this is to look to see how the other fellow is reacting and react the same way. People who never look to others for cues as to how to go on tend not to integrate particularly well.
Social comparison has a developmental role for us too. Teenage years, in particular, are often a time of almost desperate self comparison to other teenagers, in a quest to find personal identity through group identity.
So being able to compare yourself to others is a tool for managing your integration in society and your personal development. It can be useful to inwardly compare yourself to others sometimes. However, when social comparison becomes a dominant mode of functioning you are more likely to harm yourself with it than help yourself.
Chronic 'comparing' starts to be detrimental when it leaves us constantly feeling that we lack what everybody else seems to have. This type of comparing ourselves with others is neither scientific, nor objective. It is strongly biased and highly emotional. People with low self esteem when it comes to comparisons are already biased against themselves. This can be made even worse by the type of things people choose to compare (we'll come on to that in a moment). And it's not just how biased we are when comparing others to ourselves, but also how often we engage in it that can be detrimental.
So far so not very surprising; some people compare themselves relatively little to others and some people compare themselves almost continuously. But constant comparison really is a one way ticket to misery. Why? Because, if you're looking for something, you'll find it. When you look hard enough, there is always someone bigger, stronger, richer, more beautiful/handsome, cleverer, happier (at least outwardly) than you think you are.
What should you measure when you compare yourself to others? People regularly fall into the trap of trying to compare quite unquantifiable things. Beauty, for instance, is famously 'in the eye of the beholder'. What that means, spelt out, is that it is the person who is looking who decides that someone is beautiful, not the person who is being looked at. A person's true charm to others may be quite hidden from themselves. We can make absolute comparisons about height or weight, but not about charm, charisma, how funny someone is, or even how 'cool' people are. Mixing up the quantifiable with the unquantifiable is a central mistake of many chronic self comparers.
In the past, when people compared themselves to others (which they did), these 'others' generally consisted of people within their own circle, their own lived experience. It wouldn't have occurred to anyone to compare themselves with an unknown person from the other side of the world.
Modern mass media and the rise of the 'celebrity culture' means that we are now regularly bombarded with stories and images of people who seem to have it all. We can now compare ourselves with people we are unlikely to ever meet. We have the social elite of the whole world to compare ourselves to. But chronic self comparers go even further than that.
People who feel inferior to others (because of the way they compare themselves) don't limit their comparisons to supermodels, the super rich, or Nobel Prize-winning scientists; they compare themselves unfavorably to everybody. They over-estimate the attributes of others while under-estimating their own talents, looks, likability, you name it. People who have compared the confidence and self esteem out of themselves in relation to others also often tend to carry what I call a 'negative inner phantom' which aggravates the situation.
It's common to compare yourself to an inner idealized version of what you 'should' be. This phantom image is a blend of what you feel society expects of you and what you feel you should have attained and achieved. Holding a vision of a 'better self' in your mind can serve a highly positive purpose, if it encourages you to behave in ways that will actually practically improve you. If my inner 'perfect me' is reasonably hardworking, honest, decent and so forth, then it could lead me somewhere useful. Notice the word 'reasonably' in that
sentence! An inner phantom which is a 'perfect(ionist) me' is something else again. It's more like an inner tyrant. A bully that will demand only absolute (and often quite unattainable) perfection. You are always going to fall short when comparing yourself to a phantom like that. But how can you tell whether your personal inner phantom is a positive inspiration or a bullying tyrant?
One way to start checking out the real nature of your own inner phantom is to consider how you feel about where you are in life.
I often hear people say things like: "I thought I'd be married by now, with children!" or: "At my time of life, I ought to be settled in a proper career!" People somehow set themselves 'deadlines' for what they think they should have attained in life, and at what point. This is one reason why birthdays (like the big four oh) can seem so significant. Where do such notions come from?
Well, partly from society and partly perhaps from how we ourselves imagine adulthood when we are children. If, as a child, you strongly expected to be a parent or a movie star when you reached adulthood, then these expectations, if not realized, can hang around at the back of your mind for decades, causing a vague but pervasive sense of disappointment or personal failing. They may not even have been conscious expectations.
When I was a kid, I got the idea that my adult life would be a sort of cross between a Batman and Robin episode and a James Bond movie. It hasn't quite turned out like that, needless to say (and I've almost quit dressing up in the Bat costume :-)). But that sense that I ought to have been a hero still had to be dealt with so that I could get on with enjoying my actual life.
If you often feel haunted by a vague sense of disappointment, think back to what you used to expect and assume that your life would be.
Life seldom turns out as expected, of course, so we clearly need to be able to adapt to what actually happens. Real confidence comes from being able to do this well. If we're unconsciously clinging to old expectations it's that much harder to adapt. To be flexible you may need to update some of those expectations. It's not that we shouldn't have expectations, but sometimes we just need to re-examine them a little.
And in a way, a life which always turned out as expected would be rather dull, would it not? No surprises!
So you can look into whether your inner phantom is giving you a hard time because you haven't fulfilled some hypothetical expectation or other. Or maybe it's giving you grief because you have reached some goal, but your efforts are not perfect, not up to scratch. These are signs that you're under the sway of a tyrant.
Now whether you're constantly comparing yourself with others (to your detriment), or constantly comparing yourself to a negative inner phantom (to your detriment), you can't have helped noticing how very exhausting and draining all this constant comparison is. So imagine, for a moment, what it would be like to spend one whole week living freely. A whole week not comparing yourself to anyone, not even your inner phantom. Letting other people compare themselves to you if they so choose, but not caring about it one bit.
Imagine that... because therein - at least in part - lies your path towards much greater confidence in yourself. And how's this for an idea: Comparing yourself less to others may actually help make for a better society, may even help the world.
Well, maybe that sounded a bit grandiose, but I really do think society is in danger of turning itself into a bunch of carbon copy people. Clones, if you like.
Through the impact of global media, teenagers everywhere talk the same as each other, even when they live on different continents. People everywhere use the same idioms and expressions and have more and more similar beliefs and aspirations. This pressure toward less individuality and more homogeneity means that the real creativity, forward momentum, new ideas and fresh perspectives can only come from people who really dare to be themselves.
Dare to be different - or don't even dare that, just start thinking about 'fitting in' in a lot less than the rest of us do! Looking for self confidence by trying to be like others is like looking for your lost key inside your house when you lost it outside - on the grounds that there's more light to see by inside!
When you spend less energy and time on worrying about whether you 'match up' to others you become free to find real fulfillment in your life. Improved communication has many benefits for mankind, of course, but one drawback may be a serious decline in the number of people who are truly original. The philosopher and politician (not there's a rare blend!) John Stuart Mills already noted this threat as far back as 1869: "That so few now dare to be eccentric, marks the chief danger of our time."
So if you want to cut down on your self comparisons and free yourself to be the individual you were meant to be, here's what to do: