What I Know For Sure is "I Don't Know"
By Tina Olivero
I don't know all the answers, I don't know how it's going to go, I don't know how it is "supposed" to be, I don't know the outcome...
Why would we live in a world with so many unknowns? Why would we have so much to think about? Why would we live on a planet that is designed specifically to have us "discover" rather than be told all the answers? Even the greatest question of all time is still unknown. Who am I and how did I get here?
Even our so called facts can be reduced to what is the opinion or a common agreement within groups or communities or cultures. As a global human experience we have confused "knowing" with the "truth."
Using my past experiences as a gauge, my successes, my failures, my suffering and my joy, I have come to realize that my suffering surfaces when I come from a place of "already knowing." Suffering has always been my cue to look, see what's there and learn. Here's what I learned: Knowing is where my judgment comes in. Knowing is where my world gets crazy and I get super-attached to "the way it has to go." Knowing is my way of controlling the outcome that I "expect."
So why would judgment, attachments and expectations cause suffering? It seems that the universal wisdom of us all has a very important message and that message sounds something like: we are not meant to know, we are meant to be in the INQUIRY rather than in the KNOW!
What would our world be like if rather than trying to pretend we "have it all together and have all the answers," we took another path. What about the possibility of being in the unknown? What if we could be free in "NOT KNOWING"?
It seems to me that we would have a lot less people covering up, expending energy on looking good, and projecting their opinions as facts, onto others. It seems to me that we would have another space to observe ourselves from and to observe the world from. We would have a natural place to be. We would understand that we have blindspots and we can see it all. There are area's of our own minds that are hidden. We would become critically aware of our cognitive blindness.
The results of cognitive blindness in our world could transpire like this:
- We are unaware of ourselves and the impact we have on others
- We stay stuck in our righteousness
- We are inflexible, pushing, forcing and shoving
- We are intolerant, un-accepting and unloving
Does visualizing a bull in a china shop conjure up the experience? Would you consider the world of "knowing" is the predisposition for actions such as the wars we experience in our world?
What I have come to discover is that there's nothing wrong with not knowing. So I can now be at ease with not knowing. I can be in the inquiry. I can settle into the unsettled. I can come to my life from here and watch a whole new realm of possibilities become available.
How free it is to live in the world of "I don't know that I don't know and that's ok"? I'm willing to look and see, take the discovery journey and learn. Here I can learn about myself and in doing so that inner self will be reflected into my outer world!
Awareness of the inner self is a very powerful experience. Each time I learn something new, that I didn't see before, it's like a spark of energy gets ignited inside of me and a burst of energy comes to me. This is my signal that I am on the right track. This is where the magic shows up in my life. I now have a new dimension from which to choose. True and conscious choice is finally available. Conscious choice coupled with not knowing how it has to go, creates an incredible freedom inside of me! Just experience that for a moment.
What I know for sure is that I don't know. Now that's an exciting journey and adventure to be on, and who knows where I will end up!